It's important to understand what we're saying when we reason that King David was a man after God's own heart and we use that as an excuse for people's sins.
A Person After God’s Heart
A Time of Beginnings?
It's January again. 2020 is over, and we're on to 2021; but it doesn't seem to be bringing a feeling of newness with it. Rather, it feels like a continuation of the exhaustion that last year was building. 2020 is over; but so many of the things that made it so hard haven't disappeared. Can…
State of the Heart 2020
Once upon a time this past November I asked God if he would make my heart harder. And then I took it back. You see, I was thinking about how much it hurt when I lost my Little Boy and Mittens. I didn't want to feel that hurt again. I immediately realized that my heart…
Looking Back at 2019
2019 was quite the year. I fell and injured my back 3 times. Hubby and I went to Disneyland. We won a new car. I read 175 books. I fostered a mama cat and watched her bring 5 babies into this world. Three of them still live here. We got two puppies. Yes, I do…
Light in the Midst of Darkness
It's the solstice today. The shortest day of the year. The day with the least amount of light and the most darkness. What better day to talk about light. I simultaneously dread this day and look forward to this day. Dread for the same reason I dread the rainy, gray weather - I am solar…
The Most Difficult Time of Year?
The Christmas season feels harder this year. I've been trying to think of the reasons why. 1.) I've had a headache of one kind or another since October 20. Yes. Still. These headaches have kept me from doing the majority of Christmas crafts I've wanted to do. They've kept my brain from working clearly. They've…
Playing the Blame Game
They say that you can’t blame your parents for your choices. You’re a grown up. You need to take responsibility for your decisions, your actions, your words. It’s fruitless to blame your parents. After all, you are making those choices. Your parents aren’t standing there telling you what to do Hopefully. However, if you look…
On Losing Furry and Feathery Creatures
It's been a month. It's seriously been quite the month. We've lost four of our almost-full-sized chickens, one hen, one turkey, and Little Boy. And I'm so tired. Of loss. Of futile feelings. Of powerlessness against outside forces. And I miss my kittens, who weren't really kittens, but who won't get to grow up to…
A Letter to Me
This May, it will have been 20 years since I graduated high school. Seriously hard to believe. How is it that 1999 was 20 years ago? That means Y2K was just about that long ago, too. In contemplating all of this, I thought that I would do the cliche thing and write a letter to…
The bright side of darkness
The darkness can be a good thing, you know? It is only in knowing the darkness, experiencing the darkness, that we are more able to appreciate the light. When we experience grief and sorrow, joy becomes all the sweeter. It's a hard thing, though, to not fight the darkness in some of its forms: grief,…